iWas Scared - *PG13*

I snaked my fingers into his hands, as he looked at me, confused and dumbstruck. He didn't resist, though, as I gripped his hands firmly. I looked into his eyes. His beautiful brown eyes. I stared into his eyes for so long, I didn't even want to avert my gaze. He didn't look away, either. Maybe we had this mutual understanding. We were standing in the hall where Carly and Freddie's apartments can be found, and some other apartments I could care less about. No one was passing through the halls. A looked at my feet, and then looked at him again. He was a few inches taller than me, with brown hair and eyes. Cautiously, I leaned to him and brushed my lips to his, hesitantly. I just brushed my lips to his, and then I pulled away. He looked at me, confusion showing in every inch of his face. I just smiled a little, and let go of his hands.

"What'd you do that for?" he asked me, cocking an eyebrow and looking curiously into my blue eyes. I looked down and cleared my throat, staring at him again. I didn't answer his question. He should just figure it out. But it was Freddie, who knew nothing much about love. Neither did I.

"I..." I was speechless. I had nothing to say as I rested my hands on his shoulders. He looked at me with great confusion, not daring to say anything because he can't say anything now. Freddie was speechless. I tried to find a reason why, but all that came to my head was that I loved him and I was finally sorry for every insult I threw in his way, for every humiliating act for I did to him, and that I didn't mean him no harm. I didn't even dare say it, since I didn't feel it was valid enough. I finally decided to do something: cry. As tears trickled down my face, his gaze shifted from confused to concerned. He held my hand.

"Sam? Why are you crying?" he asked, as I looked up at him.

"I'm... scared..." I said, wiping the tears off my face and trying to smile.

"Of what?"

"Well, of telling you why I tried to kiss you... and... well, if I did, I figured you'd just go away." I told him. He shook his head.

"Well, if I was going to leave, Sam, then I should've left long ago. I mean, you really surprised me with that poor excuse of a kiss." he said, laughing. I laughed too. I rubbed my eyes and looked at him again.

"Well, why don't you tell me why?"

"Well... I'm sorry for insulting and humiliating and torturing you. I meant no harm in all the stuff I've said. And..." I breathed deep. I breathed in deep and pushed myself to him, crashing our lips together. His lips were soft. I locked him in a tight embrace, running my hand up and down his arms. I pinned him against the wall, deepening the kiss. I firmly gripped his upper arms, and then I wrapped my arms around his neck. Freddie wrapped his arms around my waist as we kissed. It was like eternal bliss, and I was enjoying every minute of it. I never realized this until now, when I decided to uncover the feelings hidden deep inside me. His hands travelled up and down my back, as mine held on to him. We pulled back, and he brushed off the blonde hair from my face. I breathed deep again, smiling and staring at him.

It took so long just to realize that I loved him. "You see, Freddork, I love you." I said, not daring to let go of the embrace. I never realized we could be this close to each other. Normally, I could have just slapped him then and there, but I didn't. I was the one who tried to kiss Freddie, I was the one who gave in from my desires. I shouldn't be the one to react negatively to it. I was smiling at him, the tech geek who always chased my best friend. I leaned in again and gave him a soft kiss on the lips.

"I dare you to go." I said, quietly.

"I won't, Sam." he hugged me tightly. "I love you." he added.